Media Land

Since my last entry here, life has returned to normal: valuable times with service users, grim times with NHS managers, busy times with a family growing up and leaving home, and a little bit of green time with a brilliant holiday read called "Sustainable Energy - without the hot air" and down at the yurt. Which, although randomly overgrown with everything from thistles to orchids, is looking wonderfully rustic in the midst of a town-of-ugly-repute - and producing great runner beans, courgettes and soft fruit. It reminds me of a couple of greencare principles: a weed is just a plant in the wrong place, and there's no such thing as bad weather, just wrong clothing. Which reminds me of my summer holidays, in a very beautiful part of England where the Pennines start, but for which I very definitely had the wrong clothing (though it was warm and sunny when we left Berkshire, honestly!).

In a town of ugly repute...

My dear employers, Berkshire Healthcare Foundation Trust (who now deliver all mental health and community services right across 'The Royal County'), had been beavering away on my behalf while I had been away on my hols. At Yousuf's suggestion, I had let them know that this blog was 'out there'. Their diligent PR department had done good work, and alerted BBC Radio Berkshire to the fact. So on my return, I had a few emails asking me to contact their newsroom. Could it really be that so little of interest is happening in Berkshire that they want to talk to a random psychiatrist about helping a foreign colleague? Well yes, they were interested in my tale - and the first phone call to them left me feeling quite excited that this was interesting stuff. And - though it would be touch-and-go whether I'd get to my groups in time, they provisionally booked me into the Andrew Peach Breakfast Show for Tuesday. I'd heard Andrew Peach a few times, quite liked his style, and thought it would be nice to meet him - but my excitement was squashed when I later got an email saying 'sorry, we can't fit you in. We might get back to you'. Don't call us we'll call you. Oh well, maybe somebody in Chapel Row has a new insight about Kate before she knew you-know-who.

But then they did get back to me - and a wonderfully engaging young media type, called Tom, phoned me and asked if he could ask me a couple of test questions and record them for the show. Wow - so this is what fame was like! I then spoke to somebody very helpful who explained that they wanted me to do TWO spots on the Wednesday morning breakfast show - a quick one, like a taster, at 0820, then a longer chat at 0915. I tried to get out of it by saying that I wasn't media-friendly and I'm not very good at this sort of thing - but then I thought of Yousuf and all he's doing for his devastated home town, and how he had asked me to get all the publicity for the project that I could once I got back home. They promised me that it wouldn't be at all like a grilling from J Paxman, so I said yes. They emailed me a map of where to go and asked me to be there for 0810 so I had 'time to relax' before I was on air (as if!).

The family were not impressed with the fact I'd need the car - as a few boyfriend/girlfriend/sleepover arrangements would need changing - and I set my alarm for quite a lot earlier than I needed. So when it went off I sat up in bed for a few minutes and wondered what on earth I had to say that was worth saying, then made myself a strong coffee. In the car, I decided to write myself a list of  three essential points that I wanted to get across. I did one per red traffic light, and I got to eight by the time I was in Caversham, near BBC Berkshire. Forgoing my usual fix of James Naughtie, I tuned into 104FM to hear all about the lastest advice against having caesarian sections, and listener's responses. Now why on earth would those listeners want to hear anything at all about sorts of therapy that none of them have ever heard about in far away bits of the world that none of them would ever be likely to go to?

The directions were odd, and had a space warp included - I know Caversham fairly well, but have never really known how to get into the enormous and palatial BBC estate there (most of which I understood is their main British listening station for all overseas broadcasting). I tried about three wrong turnings before finding the right one - after asking a local, who seemed surreal in her friendly coolness. Security was impressive - enormous folding road ramps that were only lowered when they had checked you on the list, and then a long drive between well-manicured lawns to a visitors car park. As I parked I thought "I expect they need this sort of thing in Tripoli at the moment, but why CAVERSHAM???".

The BBC's palace in Caversham (the nice side of the river from Reading)

The laid back receptionist pointed me to the seats in the waiting area - it was about 0800, and fairly quiet. But the whole area was what you would expect of a rather distinguished and long-established private mega-multinational, not the dear old Aunty BBC - public servant that she is. With a high-ceiling, classical columns, graceful arches, whole wall screens of News24, extremely funky computer hot-desks, nests of comfy chairs and emotionally intelligent management advice on the notice boards - this was very different from the NHS (or indeed Kabul MH Hospital).

Tom came to find me at 0810, as planned - and I found out that Tom is a first year journalism student at Cardiff who is there on a week's work experience. He enthusiastically told me that they had used a short sound clip from the phone interview (that he did with me the day before) at 0710 to trail my interview. Even more wow - this is really what it's like to be a star! And what a great work experience for him, we agreed (OK, maybe I was getting a bit carried away by now...). But he certainly had that 'put you at ease' thing, and we chatted quite easily while sitting on the producers' room sofa watching the studio through the one-way mirror - just like a good family therapy set up, I thought. The producer was soon to go on maternity leave, and not entirely comfortable with all the chat about why people had emergency C-sections. But the screens relentlessly showed progress of the show - and as it edged towards my time I was led into the studio, sat with two multicoloured microphones across a table from the presenter - James Cannon - who was standing in for the day for Andrew Peach. But I was impressed with the smoothness and flow of the whole thing, and particularly how James was so natural with it all - but I suppose that's his job. I think he's probably what I'd call a 'butch and hunky' DJ rather than a 'warm and fluffy' one - but that is in no way to detract from his professionalism.

Warm and fluffy?

Butch and hunky?

Just before my slot, he turned off the speakers and was talking normally - until I realised it was to thousands and thousands of people out there, and he was starting to talk to me.

I forget the rest, but don't think I said anything too bad.

When I checked my list, I think I'd covered two of my eight points, and I was going back in for more in about three quarters of an hour. So I was given a cup of BBC coffee and did some work in the canteen. Which was well-populated and rather plush; some of its patrons spoke in american accents and I could quite imagine them with those curly wires going from their ears under their collars. Spooks? Who knows, I certainly don't - but then I reckoned it could explain why the BBC needs such exquisite surroundings for their international listening station, and how they can afford to live in a palace!

Round two felt a bit more under control, and started straight after Diana Ross, on the dot of 0915, though I got the feeling that I went off into long chatty rambles that were rather off the point. But James seemed perfectly cool with it, asked good questions to keep me in my comfort zone, and rounded off nicely when our time was up. I had managed to squeeze in six out of my eight points.

Now I wanted more!

A very friendly and helpful editor from the newsroom took me out, and said that they may be interested in doing more on this 'story'. She wondered if one of their journalists might be able to come with me on my next trip: it could make great radio, she said. I enthused about how much Yousuf would appreciate that, and how it might help the long-term future an sustainability of the project. Yet more wow. I left with a spring in my step, and drove back into the normal world of Reading's late rush hour traffic jams.

Day 8: Escaping from Heathrow

It’s funny how sometimes you only talk to people in planes in the last few minutes. On the flight to Bahrain, I was next to a Danish NGO worker who was working with a women’s mental health project in Kabul. So I gave her Yousuf’s email. And just landing in Heathrow I made acquaintance with an electronics teacher from Norfolk , who has been doing it for 17 years. Life sounds a bit different there: the King keeps giving his people bonusues and pay rises, and the students aren’t too bothered about learning electronics because the country can pay other people to do it. At least our gang of psychologists and psychiatrists in Kabul are motivated and keen: guess who I’d rather be teaching!

Heathrow is obviously a different world – but a bit like Kabul, it is difficult to esacpe from. I had three plans up my sleeve: taxi, bus and family. Taxi - £xx to Slough, about 5 miles away. Too expensive; next option please. Bus: transfer to Terminal 5, then to Slough Bus Station, then transfer to local hospital bus. Too much luggage for that; next please. Family: all asleep and grumpy, not really possible; back to taxi.

Oh the joys of being home!

Day 7: getting out

Last day

Goodbyes all round, today – I’m quite sad to be leaving and looking forward to the next trip in September, though a lot of organising is going to be needed if it is all going to happen as planned. Lots of warn handshakes, a few hugs and smiles all round.

So not a long entry today, but a few travel tips from my experienced globetrotter colleague:

1.       Luggage weight.

Take it to the local butchers where they weigh the lambs and goats. Only a small tip is required (though if you’re not a local you may be asked for a large one. But resist.) The problem was that my big case was just under 30kg (with my secret purchase) and my borrowed case was nearly 20kg. And the baggage allowance is 35kg. And they charge about $25 per kilogram for excess. And if you can’t pay (probably in used cash plus easements), you have to ditch your stuff or miss the flight. Because at Kabul, nobody else is allowed in to see you off – so they couldn’t take it away for you. But in fact dear Yousuf DID manage to charm his way in, having correctly advised me on item 2, next.

2.       Hand baggage and laptops.
Put all the heavy stuff in your hand baggage (I expect you know that already) – and IN WITH YOUR LAPTOP. A separate laptop bag is always allowed – so use it! I was fortunate in having a large and floppy expandable laptop bag with me. So I ended up with one main bag checked in (34.8kg!), one small wheelie borrowed suitcase (about 12kg with all my clothes mercilessly stuffed in) and my ‘laptop bag’ (about 15kg and fit to burst). Luckily they didn’t spot me before I got away from the check-in desk. Apparently, they can even send you back from the gate to have them weighed (meant to be a maximum of 10kg, and they can charge ‘first class excess’ on anything over) – but they were too preoccupied with other things here, I think. Carting them round the airport was quite a pain, but less so than a whopping excess baggage charge. So far, so good.

3.       Travelling from Kabul airport.
Expect it to be quite a novel process, and look at it like you would an interesting cryptic puzzle. You know that you’re going to be on that plane in the end, so enjoy the struggle of getting there. And cherish the creative new ways they have found to put extra stages and steps into the process of getting on a plane. Keep smiling. I lost count after about seven, there of which happened before we even got the car parked. They did save the best one till last, though. You think it’s like one of those computer  games, as you keep getting onto the next level and thinking you’re winning – and surely you have finally got to safety when you find you’re in the departure lounge with all the planes visible out of the window? Well, no, not here.

In a strange airport where none of the officials speak English, how do you make sure where and when to get your plane? By checking the monitors, maybe? Well, normally yes. But they were all showing that ‘Windows isn’t working’ screen we’ve all seen. And even non-English speaking staff were nowhere to be found: they came and opened the glass doors for each flight, were completely busy with getting everybody through, then disappeared into thin air. But the answer to this level six challenge was the first class lounge, just tucked in behind the man with the prayer mats – where they had a large plasma screen display that you could see from just inside the entrance. Luckily, I soon discovered that the flight was an hour late, so didn’t need to fret while wondering if I’d missed the plane. And was that it? Well, no. There was the small matter of the corridor leading nowhere with no plane in sight and a broken lift. But when you found the staircase tucked away round the corner, it was like winning the jackpot. But when you got to the bottom of the stairs with two ridiculously heavy items of hand luggage, the bus doors were shutting… (to be continued)

Day 6: Group Therapy Afghan-style

Back to work after the weekend – on Saturday-which-feels-like-Monday : it’s going to be a long week as I’m going to have another Monday, starting as soon as I’m back. A very upbeat team meeting – starting just after 0800. The CD (=NGO's country director) is coming every day to hold the reins until a new CoP (=Chief of Party, what an odd expression) arrives to lead and manage the whole mental health project here. There has been a lot of chatter and worry about whether the project is up to scratch, or at least there is for the visible bits of it like whether walls have been painted or electric switches fitted or getting the water turned on when somebody turned it off.  The less tangible products – like better staff attitudes and less grumpy patients at Jangalar – for which I think I have seen and heard  convincing evidence, seem to be to nebulous to be registered clearly on the project tick boxes, though I know we have to try to do just that before we finish.

I don’t have any other experience to compare it with, so I have no idea whether it is a realistic worry or not, but I would think it was quite a morale problem if everybody in the team thought they weren’t doing good enough. With the pervasive paranoia that must be inevitable for anybody living in a war zone, this could surely be enough to break the camel’s back. But what was noticeable was the energetic and infectious enthusiasm of the new CD: she was on top of everything that needed doing, and even willing to start an addictions therapy group herself to get the idea of ‘self-counselling’ off the ground (using expertise from a previous life). So although it lasted till well after 0900, it felt like time together well spent. And with a bit of gentle prompting from Yousuf and I, they even warmed to the idea of possible team awaydays, and relational skills training.

I went straight from this into being an observer in the ‘day hospital’. Now if ‘day hospital’ conjures up images of people sitting around and gently convalescing, in spacious therapeutic surroundings, forget it! This was a slightly shabby room about 15 feet square, with a circle of about 12 chairs. People came into the group once weekly (there were different ones each day) either when they were still in-patients, or in the 12 weeks since they left; there were different groups taking place on each weekday. There were six women and two men in it today, which is less than usual as some of the hospital beds are shut for the refurbishment. Although I had good interpretation of what was being said in Farsi, for most of what was happening,  I didn’t need to know the content. To a strictly trained group analyst, here are the less-than-perfect things that were observable without the language:

• ·         The conductor (a psychologist) spoke to one person at a time, nobody else spoke until it was the next person’s turn.
• ·         Nearly all the conversation seemed to be questions (from him) and answers (from the group member)
• ·         People wandered in and out
• ·         There were several interruptions for administrative matters
• ·         A referral was made and accepted while another patient was speaking - a man was brought in with a referral note and sat down
• ·         During his turn to be asked questions, the man who was admitted to the group during it became rather animated with what he was saying, and hitting his head. Others looked worried and looked to the conductor, and he seemed to indicate that he shouldn’t have been there. In fact he quite soon walked out.
• ·         Each person was given just over five minutes.
• ·         When one of them started getting upset, the subject seemed to change and he moved onto the next person.
• ·         I don’t know if there was a starting time, but there wasn’t a set finishing time and most of them just drifted away when everybody had ‘had their turn’.
• ·         The two who seemed most troubled by the new man came over to Yousuf and seemed to be imploring him to do something.
• ·         After that, somebody else from the group came in and had a long, and what looked like quite intense, conversation.

But, oddly enough for somebody who is even obsessional about how far away his group therapy chairs are from each other, and how perfect the circle is, I was strangely encouraged by it. So I wondered why, and came up with this list:

• ·         It was a group, and a therapy group, and it was happening here in Kabul
• ·         They were all sat on chairs, in a circle, and talking.
• ·         There were empty chairs for absent members (though this may have been accidental).
• ·         It seemed to be valued by the organisation, and its members
• ·         Not counting myself and yousuf, it had the ‘perfect number’ for an analytic small group – eight members plus the conductor
• ·         The mix of members’ problems seemed to be very reasonable: one woman talking of domestic violence, another with difficult family rivalries, a man with crippling self-doubt, an agoraphobic woman who was now managing to come in from some distance away after being an inpatient, a woman who appeared very resistant to speaking and would only utter single syllables when questioned by the conductor, and two who had had their turns before we came in. Even the man who was hitting his head appeared more angry and upset than psychotic, so may well have been a suitable member for a longer-term group.
• ·         It was a mixed group – gender, age and socioeconomic status (one member implied being quite wealthy).
• ·         It had a clear slow-open format, with members staying for (I think) twelve sessions after discharge from hospital.
• ·         There was at least a level of trust that enabled the four women wearing bhurkas to show their faces and express emotion in them.
• ·         The conductor is one of the psychologists who was in the Tuesday morning psychotherapy teaching sessions, and wants to learn more.
• ·         The room, although not in any way comfortable or well-furnished by our UK standards, was still good enough for conducting group therapy.
• ·         It happens every week.
• ·         There are different groups on the other mornings, conducted by different psychologists.
• ·         It felt like the basic structure for establishing a group therapy culture is in place.
• ·         I always enjoy groups!

Next, a brief discussion with Yousuf about the training course plans, which had been quietly germinating for a few days. With a couple of rough old diagrams, they sprouted into two courses delivered in six 3-day events. One course will be for 80 people and be called ‘Biopsychosocial Medicine: Awareness Level’, and the other will be a more intensive course, hopefully for training 20 future trainers, called ‘Biopsychosocial Medicine: Foundation Level’. As the 14 psychologists were all assembled in the library for something unrelated, we thought we would try out the idea on them when they finished their meeting. And they liked it, a fact probably not unrelated to the expectation that they will all be expected to do the ‘Foundation’ level, and form the backbone of the new way of doing things. So germination led to sprouting, which seemed to get the warm sunshine it needed – let’s just hope that everything blossoms by next spring!

Bolstered with enthusiasm at this, I resolved to do a quick report for the NGO to gather all this together straight after lunch.  I started about 1.30pm, expecting to finish by about 2.30. In the way of these things, it was finished and emailed off almost exactly 12 hours after I started it: 1.30am. But it is an evidence-based analysis of what needs I have unearthed during the week, and a detailed plan for setting up these two levels of ‘biopsychosocial’ training in the three future visits (late September, late January and April). The details are too much for this blog, but they are uploaded as a pdf resource.

But it wasn’t all work and no play, as a certain downtown trip happened, and what a trip it was. In order to not compromise security, I can only portray it by photographs in which the location is not discernable, and the captions are somewhat cryptic…

Just what we need in Slough

$50,000?

Day 5: food and drugs

When I was staying regularly with friends in Nottingham, we used to aspire to having three GIBBs (Great Ideas Before Breakfast) each day, to set us off to work with a spring in our steps. So after talking about expansive and grandiose ideas with Yousuf until late last night, then sleeping on them, I need to carry on the Nottingham tradition, here  in Kabul. So here are today’s GIBBs:

1. ‘Institute of Biopsychosocial Medicine’ – here in Kabul. Not for the traditional psychiatry of schizophrenia , mania and the organic psychoses – but mostly for PTSD and addictions.
2. Run on principles of greencare, sustainability and new economics. Small is beautiful, big society, cultural congruence, low-tech, supported from numerous directions.
3. With backing from David Cameron next time he comes over – as a British legacy to be left after the troops are all withdrawn.

Now I reckon that anybody is doing well if more than 1% of their GIBBs come to anything, so don’t hold your breath!

Back at home Sunday means Sunday Lunch is required – which is the one meal of the week that I always cook. Now we are in the unfortunate position here of having temporarily lost our cook – she got quite seriously burned when the pressure cooker exhaled its superheated steam all over her front a couple of weeks ago. So our cleaner is doing the cooking at the moment – which is fine and nutritious, but not very varied. Breakfast is local bread or UK cereals or eggs; lunch is basmati or pilau rice, fried chicken or casseroled lamb, and okri or spinach; dinner is the same as lunch. But today being Friday (meaning Sunday to us, see yesterday), there’s no food being prepared for us. But Yousuf has the answer up his sleeve – and after we had coffee (which I sprayed all over his day Sunday Best pajamas while trying to get the cafetiere working, in my craving for caffeine) – he went to a relative’s party and brought back two steaming bowls of Sunday lunch which had come from enormous party cauldrons, for feeding several hundred people.

Later in the afternoon, we decided to go and see the state addictions hospital, Jangalar, which is also part of the project. It is in a large building that used to be a car factory: about three quarters of it is used for NGO-run addiction programmes, and less than a quarter is run by the state for detoxification only. The NGO side is better endowed and has a wider range of therapeutic programmes, and the two are run entirely independently with no communication or cooperation.

Entering Jangalar Hospital

The state programme has 40 beds, but the usual number occupied is nearer to 30. Its premises are very dilapidated, although their refurbishment is part of the project. Nearly all the patients are heroin and opium addicts, and they are usually referred by their families. They first attend outpatient motivation groups run by psychologists at the Mental Health Hospital, during which time they reduce their drug use. Then they are admitted to the detox hospital, and prescribed a normal range of sedatives, anti-emetics, anti-diarrhoeals, and other required medication. It always includes ‘cold therapy’ on the prescription sheets, which means cold showers – in a rather unsanitary-looking shower room. They are regularly monitored for signs and symptoms of withdrawal, and when these have subsided (usually over about a week) they are moved to the next room  for up to about a month for rehabilitation, and therapy from the psychologists. One of the patients told me that what they need to wait for is for their families to be ready to take them back. As you might imagine in a poor country like Afghanistan, they are on their own once they are discharged from the hospital.

The Jangalar ward

The 'cold therapy' block (3 'showers')

However, despite the primitive surroundings, the staff seemed cheerful, professional and hopeful – and the patients welcomed us warmly. A facility like this is obviously barely scratching the surface of the country’s drug problem – and the chances of meaningful recovery must be poorer for the lack of any psychosocial follow-up. Another chance for a predominantly self-help model of greencare-based intensive long-term rehabilitation, I would hope: what most of the world knows as TCs. But what I would not hope for is that the research work, done here by overseas agencies, to introduce methadone maintenance regimes, demonstrates that they need to introduce non-abstinence programmes. Afghanistan has the clean slate I mentioned two days ago, and to commit itself to indefinite pharmacological treatment for vast numbers of people in the name of medical science seems to be a backward step to me. It would benefit the pharmaceutical companies, the doctors who prescribe it – and render the addicts lifelong emotional invalids, and spread the belief that the only way to treat addictions is with medicines. A biopsychosocial approach would seem much more culturally congruent, and sustainable way to go.

We asked our driver to take the scenic route home, so I could see a few different areas of Kabul. We made our usual hectic and collision-free way along the very dusty streets which sometimes looked like thick fog in the late afternoon hurly-burly, between the mountains dotted with ramshackle houses (glowing like a tableau of fairy-lights as dusk came upon us), and along the roadsides with all manner of stores selling everything from freshly-killed chickens to chrome car wheels – all illuminated by huge and unfeasibly bright multicoloured low-energy lightbulbs. The most striking places though were Las-Vegas-in-Kabul, and the Afghan version of Surrey-on-Thames.

Wedding halls are an iconic cultural phenomenon here: they are vast buildings, boring and grey by day, but illuminated with neon lights, electric trees and giant lit-up stars and moons at night. They also have lines of cars and hoards of people in their finery going in all directions, outside them. Inside, they host Afghan-size family parties and events – and as I said yesterday, ‘family’ here probably means hundreds, and quite possibly thousands of people. Thursday night is the busiest – but it was pretty hectic tonight too (Friday – like Sunday to us). Although at first it seems a bit unreal – ‘how can a country in this state waste all that money on electricity and parties?’ – I was really cheered up by the thought that they’re having a great time with their enormous families, despite the horrors going on all around.

The Afghan version of Surrey-on-Thames is where very rich people grab land (usually without buying it) and build ostentatious and extremely large houses on it (usually without permission). It was previously the location of disused military buildings like barracks, and is close to the city centre. We reckoned that there are too few people in the whole of Afghanistan who make that amount of money through legitimate business interests to fill these houses (and they would probably have better taste, anyway). So it doesn’t take much reckoning to work out that most are probably built with money from drugs and arms. ‘Why don’t the authorities just demand they are knocked down?’ I naively asked Yousuf; he didn’t quite use his usual ‘there are twenty reasons…’ answer, but top of the list was the fact that many extremely influential people live here, including some who are high in government. Tricky.

Time to go home for our evening meal. As we were stuck in traffic by the roadside stalls, Yousuf pointed out the local cheese (semi-solid, white, about the size and shape of a large squashed orange), as we’d talked about it a couple of days ago. When I said ‘let’s get some’, I was quite surprised at his John Macenroe-type reaction. But as his honoured (and very well-indulged) guest, he generously agreed to buy some. Then he seemed to get a bee in his bonnet, and went off to some other shops before coming back to the car with quite a collection of bags. This is going to be a very special Afghani traditional meal, he explained to me: we are going to eat like the poor people do, like the peasants: bread and cheese and raisins. He had also bought fresh melons and mangos. Well, if the peasants eat like this, I thought, I’m quite happy being a peasant (and often am at home, though it’s usually tomatoes instead of raisins). After an uncertain start, Yousuf decided that it tasted rather good after all – and I wondered if it was just something that he had never tried before. But he soon started reminiscing about how he used to eat it as a small child, and how it brought back the memories of those days – just a few streets away, here in Kabul.

A peasant's meal - not unlike a ploughman's lunch?

It is an Afghani saying that food tastes much better if you are hungry – and a peasant can enjoy his bread and cheese and raisins more than a king enjoys all his fabulous food. So indeed we did eat like kings – although he wasn’t sure he would be able to tell his wife about our ‘special meal’…